.:One Night:.

just one night
for you to make everything right.
why would i wait on you,
years more what about the last two?

ive moved on,
no more waiting for the break of dawn.
i'm finally happy,
done with the over-rated and sappy.

falling asleep,
with a smile head to feet.
laughing to tears,
and going through without and fears.

just one knight,
in shining armor sun bright.
carried away,
to be with him forever... and a day.

.:How?:.

After your heart is broken,
once is enough...
and twice is too much...
How do we move on again?

When my dreams,
are outrageous...
and not plausible...
How are they my reality?

When my past,
is too painful...
and in all I know...
How do I make a future?

After I decide,
I have to move forward...
and I can't dwell on the past...
How do I stay strong?

And when all hope,
relies on love...
but you still think love is dead...
How do we find it again?

.:live.learn:.

when the rain falls i think of your eyes,
and all the times looking at you made me cry.
when the thunder rolls i think of your voice,
and how just one sound could knock me to the ground.
when the lightening strikes i think of your hands,
and the way i could never tell if you were there to catch my fall.

when the sun shines i see his face,
and all the happiness that i feel.
when the birds sing i feel his kiss,
and the emotion that it brings.
when the wind blows i hear his words,
and how they touch my soul.

torn between the ashes of old,
and the rays of new.
the fears of forgetting my past,
with the hope of grand future.
growing from the trials and tribulations,
to applying life lessons to every day.

one day they will see, i was never easy.
someday they will find, that i spoke my mind.
everyday they will miss, a chance to lower their fist.
today what will they do? be honest, be loyal, be true?

.:2 AM:.

its 2 am,
and i cant sleep.
i can only think of you
and your heart beat.

the way you make me smile,
just by looking in your eyes.
or the way you make me laugh,
from telling me stupid lies.

the words you speak,
when your only talking to me.
and the butterflies i get,
as you wrap your arms around me.

your kisses kill me,
as if they were poison,
because you dont feel the same,
you dont have eyes for only one.

.:What I Wish He Know:.

the bitter-sweet taste
of his salty cheek...
tears running down,
he fears he looks weak.

if he only knew
the strength i see...
when he smiles,
and when he holds me.

the chills i get
when i look in his eyes...
because i feel so safe,
and he doesn't even realize.

if he could only feel
how much i care...
when he hugs me tight,
and we just stand there.

the sadness that comes
and never goes away...
from knowing i'm not enough,
lingers with me day by day.

.:Lost & Losing:.

the tears fall like the spring rain
and all i can see is my hopes,
my dreams, all of it going down the drain.

i get so lost in you eyes,
because its one story to another,
but they're still all lies.

its a raging river coming for me,
youre on land staring,
but you still fail to see.

the pain you cause,
amplified by my lifes defeat,
makes it impossible to find peace.

where im going and where i've been,
seem to be the same,
like im traveling in circle all over again.

lost and losing control,
powered by hate and fear,
no sight of my future and goal.

everything i try is never enough,
i try to be perfect, but fail,
my face, revealing my bluff.

at the end of the road,
a dead end, if you will,
lighting the fuse, waiting to explode.