.:Debut:.

check this while i spit it right
you had me waiting all day n night
sayin that you really loved me
when you never really could

so i took my heart an' broke ur name
the last 2 yrs were jus' a game.
i forgot who you were.
an' found a real mayne!

i said forget the past.
my goal is to surpass,
every expectation that you had for me.
thinkin i'd never last on my own.

so here's one down,
watching you try'n clown.
i'm becomin myself
an making a name

heres to provin you wrong
doing my thing since you been gone.
you thought you knew me,
neither of us saw this coming.

so good luck to you,
im waiting to see your debut.
I'm gone for good,
smiling cause with you i never could!

.:Lingering:.

Time has passed since I last talked to you. You're voice still lingers in the back of my mind... all the time. The way you said you didn't know who I was anymore or how you didn't like who I've become. I guess its hard for me to take. Losing someone, something that just helped me feel somewhat complete. Here's where it gets tricky, with that loss I've also found another world, another side, another view that makes me feel completion too. I get so lost in thought when I try to figure out what to do. Why do I want to please something from the past in this way is beyond me... does this mean my greatest fear that what I think makes me so happy now isn't, isn't what I need or where I'm supposed to be or even worse... it will all end like everything else has!? I don't want that to be, I want where I am now.. but still live for your acceptance. I think that is where I'm stuck... I need that CLARITY. Who the hell knows what I need clarified but obviously there is something. Maybe we should talk?
Time has passed since I last talked to you. Is that really your voice lingering or just myself telling myself I let you go and I shouldn't have?
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"Just let go of this..."
-How? That is the reason I am the way I am today. Just let it go seems so, so wrong.
"The past is the past. You're movin forward and you're smiling and carefree. Why end it?"
-But I wouldn't be able to realize how happy my life now makes me without everything I have been through.
"You're choice... but eventually you will see you have to let this go."
-*sigh*

.:Fear of Patience:.

I let myself go.
I let you in.
I fell for you.
I ignored my fears,
of being hurt again.

You had lost your way.
You found it with me.
You forgot about her.
You created a new life,
just the way you wanted it to be.

I waited patiently.
You weren't ready to settle.
We ended up together.
We're finally on the same page,
and can enjoy the ride.

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this did not go how i had wanted it to... writer's block i suppose.