.:Fear of Patience:.

I let myself go.
I let you in.
I fell for you.
I ignored my fears,
of being hurt again.

You had lost your way.
You found it with me.
You forgot about her.
You created a new life,
just the way you wanted it to be.

I waited patiently.
You weren't ready to settle.
We ended up together.
We're finally on the same page,
and can enjoy the ride.

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this did not go how i had wanted it to... writer's block i suppose.

.:My Wonderland:.

i thought you were different,
that you could be my everything.
you gave me false hope,
of what the future may bring.
even made us into more,
more than just a summer fling.

i put myself out there,
and you took me for granted.
you helped me create a fantasy,
a world completely enchanted.
you said it would change for the better,
til today and then you recanted.

you're playing games with me,
hurting my head and confusing my heart.
the level attraction beyond comprehension,
i've been mesmerized from the start.
i'm trying to play the game right,
avoiding us having to part.

i wish you could read me,
and see how much to me you mean.
i try to do so much for you,
yet it's as if it all goes unseen.
can you tell me how you feel,
are we at an in-between?

.:to SAVE me:.

why do you do this to me?!

you drive me crazy to where i can't think!
what's in it for you?
hoping my life falls to pieces...
so that i'm just as miserable as you.

i am beyond happy now!
can't you just accept that?
i don't want you in the back of my head...
i don't want to remember us anymore.

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just get rid of me!
can't you just block me from your life?
then we could both move on...
it's not fair when im a friend to you and i get nothing.

i just want to live my life!
don't you want that too?
all we do is fight...
i'm tired of arguing for no reason.

i will ALWAYS have love for you!
don't you see?
i can't change that...
but i've moved on and you should too, for good.

why do you do this to me...?

.:One Night:.

just one night
for you to make everything right.
why would i wait on you,
years more what about the last two?

ive moved on,
no more waiting for the break of dawn.
i'm finally happy,
done with the over-rated and sappy.

falling asleep,
with a smile head to feet.
laughing to tears,
and going through without and fears.

just one knight,
in shining armor sun bright.
carried away,
to be with him forever... and a day.

.:How?:.

After your heart is broken,
once is enough...
and twice is too much...
How do we move on again?

When my dreams,
are outrageous...
and not plausible...
How are they my reality?

When my past,
is too painful...
and in all I know...
How do I make a future?

After I decide,
I have to move forward...
and I can't dwell on the past...
How do I stay strong?

And when all hope,
relies on love...
but you still think love is dead...
How do we find it again?

.:live.learn:.

when the rain falls i think of your eyes,
and all the times looking at you made me cry.
when the thunder rolls i think of your voice,
and how just one sound could knock me to the ground.
when the lightening strikes i think of your hands,
and the way i could never tell if you were there to catch my fall.

when the sun shines i see his face,
and all the happiness that i feel.
when the birds sing i feel his kiss,
and the emotion that it brings.
when the wind blows i hear his words,
and how they touch my soul.

torn between the ashes of old,
and the rays of new.
the fears of forgetting my past,
with the hope of grand future.
growing from the trials and tribulations,
to applying life lessons to every day.

one day they will see, i was never easy.
someday they will find, that i spoke my mind.
everyday they will miss, a chance to lower their fist.
today what will they do? be honest, be loyal, be true?

.:2 AM:.

its 2 am,
and i cant sleep.
i can only think of you
and your heart beat.

the way you make me smile,
just by looking in your eyes.
or the way you make me laugh,
from telling me stupid lies.

the words you speak,
when your only talking to me.
and the butterflies i get,
as you wrap your arms around me.

your kisses kill me,
as if they were poison,
because you dont feel the same,
you dont have eyes for only one.