.:2 AM:.

its 2 am,
and i cant sleep.
i can only think of you
and your heart beat.

the way you make me smile,
just by looking in your eyes.
or the way you make me laugh,
from telling me stupid lies.

the words you speak,
when your only talking to me.
and the butterflies i get,
as you wrap your arms around me.

your kisses kill me,
as if they were poison,
because you dont feel the same,
you dont have eyes for only one.

.:What I Wish He Know:.

the bitter-sweet taste
of his salty cheek...
tears running down,
he fears he looks weak.

if he only knew
the strength i see...
when he smiles,
and when he holds me.

the chills i get
when i look in his eyes...
because i feel so safe,
and he doesn't even realize.

if he could only feel
how much i care...
when he hugs me tight,
and we just stand there.

the sadness that comes
and never goes away...
from knowing i'm not enough,
lingers with me day by day.

.:Lost & Losing:.

the tears fall like the spring rain
and all i can see is my hopes,
my dreams, all of it going down the drain.

i get so lost in you eyes,
because its one story to another,
but they're still all lies.

its a raging river coming for me,
youre on land staring,
but you still fail to see.

the pain you cause,
amplified by my lifes defeat,
makes it impossible to find peace.

where im going and where i've been,
seem to be the same,
like im traveling in circle all over again.

lost and losing control,
powered by hate and fear,
no sight of my future and goal.

everything i try is never enough,
i try to be perfect, but fail,
my face, revealing my bluff.

at the end of the road,
a dead end, if you will,
lighting the fuse, waiting to explode.

.:Out Of Fear:.

Memories that still float in the air,
the tears are flowing because of the truth.
That its always there, to much to bear.
Hurt from knowing it will never compare.

Trying the best that I know how,
fighting with every breath I take.
Hoping "I love you's" are real,
and not to much for you to feel.

Afraid of the outcome,
and not making it to the end.
I try to look on the bright side,
but I feel like i'm never on the right side.

I know that "it's all in the past",
yet it still seems as if it's happening now.
Gut feelings can be wrong,
and even if it is... I question if I belong.

.:The Way I See It:.

Impressed by how you make me smile,
and being straight faced all the while.
Curious to how you make me laugh,
without a move til the second half.

Dazzled by the way you talk,
as you look at me and gawk.
Confused by the look in your eyes,
is it real or just a disguise?

Terrified by your uncertain walk,
in fear you may turn and mock.
Intrigued by the love you give,
with hopes that we may live.

.:Circle with a Cut:.

from a seed into a flower,
a catepillar to a butterfly.
life surrounds us,
and keeps going by.

without any hesitation,
without any warning,
we learn how love,
and then begin mourning.

the rapid waters run,
and the fierce wind blows,
things seem so bad,
but this is an all time low.

we pick up and start all over,
building up where life used to be.
the memories stay in our mind,
but the pain we always see.

we become stronger,
and a more unified whole,
but are prepared for the future,
bearing scars down to our soul.

.:BFFL:.

so i shall show some kind of love,
one that never ends.
a kinda in which i cannot describe,
other than we're best friends.

forever and beyond taking the time to share
the things that hit the hardest.
making the time to help and be there
for the worst times and the best.

i love you til the end,
you're my best friend.