All in All

Behind these unfaithful eyes,
I see the truths buried beneath all the lies.

I venture deep into the thoughts,
all the laughter with the forget-me-nots.

How everything seems so right,
if only in the most twisted perfect light.

You lie to me for the entertainment,
and ignore all resentment.

I cannot see life past you,
but you lead me to be nothing but blue.

All in all it seems I'll never win,
but for what its worth I'll never give in.

.: Locked Wishes:.

I wish I could find all the words to tell you
how it is I really feel.
But the same ones are all that come to mind
and have lost appeal.

Your kindness rushes over me
like a wave crashing into a dock.
This entire time I have been looking
and you had the key to my lock.

.:Out Of My Mind:.

here you have been,
we're almost six months in.
and i never fully realized you were there.
i never really thought that you would care.

this entire time,
i have been so blind.

i have always seen you as a friend.
i didn't see that being amended.
but since that's what its become,
i am starting to feel more and less numb.

.:The Final Fight:.

i have so much hope,
buried in the shadow of my fear.

my anger is growing,
my eyes green with envy.

bleeding tears from the heart,
knowing the end is coming.

hate coursing through my veins,
enough to cut the ties.

for once in my life,
i am going to fight the lies.

.:P.S. I love you:.

i love the way you make me laugh
with your baby talk and silly jokes.
And i love when we relax and share a bubble bath,
the way you wipe away the suds to kiss my face.

the joy you bring into a room,
with just the smile you present.
the way you send away tears and gloom
with your sensual and calming hugs.

but most of all i love that i have you,
and you make me strive to do better.
you make my days so much brighter in every hue,
you make the world a better place.

p.s. i love you.

.:Competitor:.

Out of no where,
from the depths of the ocean.
Back from the dead,
to give me a scare.

You had your chance,
now he's mine!
We are happy now,
you can't save your last dance.

Your twisted fantasy,
is now mine for the taking!
You've created a war,
by messing with my ecstasy!

Good luck and goodbye,
I'm taking a stand.
This is what I want and believe in,
but for what its worth; it was a noble try.

.:Debut:.

check this while i spit it right
you had me waiting all day n night
sayin that you really loved me
when you never really could

so i took my heart an' broke ur name
the last 2 yrs were jus' a game.
i forgot who you were.
an' found a real mayne!

i said forget the past.
my goal is to surpass,
every expectation that you had for me.
thinkin i'd never last on my own.

so here's one down,
watching you try'n clown.
i'm becomin myself
an making a name

heres to provin you wrong
doing my thing since you been gone.
you thought you knew me,
neither of us saw this coming.

so good luck to you,
im waiting to see your debut.
I'm gone for good,
smiling cause with you i never could!